MASSIVE DEPRESSION...Wow!!

It's really hitting me. I break down in tears several times a day...I can't control myself...

I think that during the selection, and then subsequent treatment, one is so focused on the task that once it's done, it's almost anti-climatic.

It just feels like I'm waiting. Almost like I went through this whole thing as just a waste, an exercise in futility.

I know this is not really true, but it feels so over now.

Michael | 53 | SCC | Right Tonsil | Dx'd: 06-10-05 | STAGE IV, T3N2bM0 | 3 Nodes R Side | MRND & Tonsillectomy 06/29/05 Dr Fee/Stanford | 8 wks Rad/Chemo startd August 15th @ MSKCC, NY | Tx Ended: 09-27-05 | Cancer free at 16+ Yrs | After-Effects of Tx: Thyroid function is 0, ok salivary function, tinnitus, some scars, neck/face asymmetry, gastric reflux. 2017 dysphagia, L Carotid stent / 2019, R Carotid occluded not eligible for stent.2022 dental issues, possible ORN, memory/recall challenges.