Michael,
We felt the same way that first week. The next week was easier somehow - some of the chemo side effects subside and the adjustment to the Peg tube occurs. Hang in there. Trust. Scream if you like. It is really a tough thing you are doing. Don't beat yourself up. Just Be! We are connected and we are rooting for you guys.
Janet


Caregiver, Husband diagnosed 7/6/05 SCC left tonsil, T2N2bM0, Concurrent chemo/radiation begun 8/2/05 (Cisplatin). Received 2 cycles cisplatin, 38 radiation treatments. Completed course 9/27/05.