Well said Tina and Tim, Michael I will also be thinking of you tomorrow.

Consider turning "desperation" into inspiration.

Take small steps and look no farther than minutes or maybe hours ahead. (living in the moment) You can always carry the load just make it light enough.

If your are like me this is the first time you are going in for any surgery much less cancer. I do remember while in the waiting room for surgery that I was putting myself in the hands of my doctor. At that moment the fears subsided. Tim's words are sage: put your trust in your doctor's hands, let them do the worry.

Mark, 21 Year survivor, SCC right tonsil, 3 nodes positive, one with extra-capsular spread. I never asked what stage (would have scared me anyway) Right side tonsillectomy, radical neck dissection right side, maximum radiation to both sides, no chemo, no PEG, age 40 when diagnosed.