We are too hard on ourselves sometimes and maybe a few moments of "weakness" within our trusted circle, will not only allow us to share our fears but also give others permission to share theirs.

Of course you are terrified - you wouldn't be human otherwise, You bear more burden than anyone else. If the added stress of staying strong on top of the stress of the current situation isn't enough, you also have to deal with the fear of the future which at times can feel like the greatest stress of all.

If you can't do it with trusted family member then do it with your hairdresser but find someone who will listen while you let it "all hang out". Everything. You will be amazed at how your perspective will return after you let the torrent of words, fears, resentments and tears out that you are holding back right now. If you can find someone prepared to hold you until you quit crying too, all the better.

My saviour was a work mate from 500 miles away who would ring every couple of weeks to check up on me. And every time she rang, I thought I would keep my act together and not rave on like I did last time. And every time, I would rave on for another 2 hours, just like I did last time. And every couple of weeks she would ring again and let me rave on again. Now she is the one in trouble, and I ring her every couple of weeks to check up her. And SHE raves on for a couple of hours. Do I feel resentful or think less of her? Absolutely not! I am grateful that I can pay her back and also a bit flattered that she knows that she can be honest and that I will not let her down.