Christine being a caregiver is the hardest job their is. Having to wear so many hats all at the same time always with a smile on your face in front of the patient is no small feat. Its a hundred times more difficult when your patient is not co-operating all the time. Never EVER consider yourself anything less than an amazing, competent, loving caregiver with the patience of a saint. Im sure your task is much more than I would be able to handle. To me being the patient is the easy part. Caregivers are angels!!!

If you need help caring for Matt it certainly understandable. If the time has come for professionals to take over then know in your heart that you did every single thing possible to help him. Never look back and have any regrets. You have done an excellent job in a very difficult situation. Making this decision is not easy at all.

Please remember every single day to take some time for just you. Be good to yourself.

Always keeping you and Matt in my prayers.


Christine
SCC 6/15/07 L chk & by L molar both Stag I, age44
2x cispltn-35 IMRT end 9/27/07
-65 lbs in 2 mo, no caregvr
Clear PET 1/08
4/4/08 recur L chk Stag I
surg 4/16/08 clr marg
215 HBO dives
3/09 teeth out, trismus
7/2/09 recur, Stg IV
8/24/09 trach, ND, mandiblctmy
3wks medicly inducd coma
2 mo xtended hospital stay, ICU & burn unit
PICC line IV antibx 8 mo
10/4/10, 2/14/11 reconst surg
OC 3x in 3 years
very happy to be alive smile