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I went to a highly rated Comprehensive Cancer Center with top notch RO who has been a pioneer in re-radiation and doing things other ROs say can't be done. My MO was heading up two clinical trials as well as working on HPV issues. Yet despite all that, I ended up with my cancer coming back and needing the same long surgery as you are facing. Plus I was not a smoker, and had an HPV positive tumor so I was supposed to do well. Stuff happens.
Take it a day at a time
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