UncleVern, Thanks for your reply. I checked for responses for a few days and figured everyone was just tired of responding to me because Brian is not willing to fight a conventional fight. I appreciate your taking the time to respond. He is still working but we are having a very rapid pulse rate. He goes to 100 mg of MTX next week. His Dr has told him his heart may not hold up to the dose, but this is Brians way. He IS going to die. I have accepted that, but I am in no way ready for it. He is not affectionate or loving anymore--not even in his tone, but I know he loves me. Days are hard and nights are so long, but we are making it pretty good. Thank you again so much for your support. It is appreciated more than you will ever know. Teresa