While I agree wholeheartedly with EricS and its as though he read my mind & heart and wrote it out, I also want to say something to Malka: these posts are supportive of your status as inspiration not accusations that you see yourself as a victim. I know it's ironic for me to worry about hurting people's feelings with posts since I often do it, (but hey I've been cranky lately as my last two MRI's were cancelled due to snow and now tomorrow's is still on, but it looks like a tough commute back from it with more snow on the way and I'm sick of shoveling)but feelings can and do run very high on the issue of victim vs patient vs warrior. so thanks for that post Malka as it has elicited very comforting posts of solidarity in my self view also. (plus it let me belatedly point out to Suzanne that she is an inspiration.) Charm
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