Christine - Please, please don't EVER feel like you have failed! Asking for help is not a sign of weakness. You have already shown so much strength - physical, emotional as well as in every other area of your care and love for Matt! If you do wave that white flag, it should be for YOU - to get whatever assistance will help you to survive. Whether you check Matt into a facility or get someone to sit with him while you cannot, it will make it possible for you to replenish yourself and keep your strength up so that you can be available for any peaceful moments that come by for you and Matt. . . . moments to just sit by him, touch his hand, or whisper "I love you". Even if he does not acknowledge or hear you, he will know it somewhere deep inside. Caregivers need care, too.