I had almost forgotten how difficult things can be. The mood swings are back in full force. I'm feeling like I cannot do anything right by him. I feel guilty for working, for walking with ease, for being "healthy"...
We've been at odds more often than not today. He blames me, I blame him... I asked "maybe, just maybe, could we both be taking things wrongly?" He says "sorry i'm still alive"...
just makes me wanna scream, and there was a time that i'd have done just that then had a good cry...
Now, I know that it isn't anything I've done and there isn't anything I CAN do about it, so I just keep to myself in my office and wait it out.