Well still no word back from the radiology oncologist if he can devise a treatment plan. I'll give him until Monday after we get back from the David Nasto Memorial /OCF Walk in Andover NJ .
Regular readers know I often advise newbies to get into their feelings of anger and fear and yearnings to be cured but not be trapped or overwhelmed by them by setting aside one or two 15 minutes of wallowing in them each day, then move on. I often rewrite songs I hear in my mind.
Thought I'd share today's wallowing, brought on by an evocative Everly Brother's song: When Will I Be Loved;
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I've had radiation, I've had chemo
When will I be cured
I've been cut open, I'm on a Peg tube
When will I be cured

When I get a new treatment that I want for mine
It always breaks my heart in two, it happens every time
I've been cheated, been mistreated
When will I be cured

I've been made blue, I've been lied to,
When will I be cured

When will I be cured
FADE
When will I be cured[/quote]

Then I think what if an Angel appeared and said I could be not only cured but made whole as if the Cancer had never happened, but I would have to lose the Love of my wife and son. I'd choose Love. As bad as this cancer is, when I was lonely and unloved, that was worse.
Charm