Yesterday morning, J and I were talking about OCF (or rather, I was sharing information and stories with him.) He became really quiet and said he needed to get away for awhile. When he came back several hours later, he asked me not to say anything about OCF to him again. He seemed on the verge of tears. I agreed not to but it makes me really sad. He won't come back to the site--not because of anyone or anything in particular. The information and stories just upset him. I am always thirsty for more knowledge about OC. But, it is so frightening for him. I don't know if it is worse that he's had a taste of treatment and then a reprieve. I'm pretty tenacious (yep, really) and I won't hesitate to push and pull him all the way through treatment. I am hoping he has the emotional strength to get through it. OCF Forum is a God-send. Not only is there a mountain of information here, but also support for whoever needs it. I feel sad that I can't share it with him. I really don't know how that's going to work.