Oh my G-d Nurse had to come last night. He is starting to bleed out. They can't say how much time he has but they just sat me down and told me he will eventually start bleeding out thru eyes ears nose throat. I am shocked and broken, never even occurred to me he would die so awfully. I feel so unprepared, how could they not of told me this. They did say they don't know when only what the ugly details were. I am petrified


Cheryl
1st post under(Introduce Yourself Re:I've waited too long)
Caregiver to Doug
Dx 8/31/10
Stage 4 HPV(?) SCC Tonsil, Tongue, Jaw and Lymph-nodes
98% Glossectomy
Bilateral Neck Dissection x 2
Trach and PEG indefinitely
Palliative weekly Chemo
Carboplatin-Pemetrexed-Erbitux