Oh, Cheryl, your post is heartbreaking. I feel your sadness, pain, and overwhelming loneliness. I am praying for you and Doug and hoping you get some much needed sleep. The best thing you can do is know that you are doing everything you can. Keep posting. I wish that there was an easier path through this time. You are not alone.

Anita (68)
CG to husband, Clark, 79,
DX SCC 11/07, T4N0Mx, PEG 1/08, RAD, post rad infection 3/08,
HBOT 40 dives, ORN, Surg 11/09 mandibulectomy w/fibular graft.
Plastic Surg 4/10, 12/10, 3/11, 10/11, 4/12, 10/12. All PETS clear,
PEG out 1/11. 6/11 non union jaw fracture
Fractured jaw w/surgery 7/14
Aspiration pneumonia 7/21, 10/22
PEG 7/21
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