I just wanted to thank everyone who posted here and post a brief update. Hubby had pangs of guilt that seem to have really changed things--at least so far (I'm going to still be a little unsure of this for a while which is probably reasonable at this point). We're still together and back in couples counseling and he's being more emotionally supportive of the physical challenges I still face than he ever was during the worst of my treatment.

This is a lonely disease sometimes and it's a shame it made both of feel estranged from each other on top of everything else, but maybe we're over the worst of that. I'm grateful, as always, for the support I found here when I needed it.

Nelie