Hi Mandi
Well this might not be what you want to hear, but been there, done it, read the book, GOT THE TEE-SHIRT, forget for the moment all your feelings for your husband, and all the good things that have been, and ASK YOURSELF what do you want now at this moment in time? Don't say that is selfish, it's not, as my friend says, "This is not a rehearsal, GET REAL, this is your life." Don't blow it girl! Put some space in your life, get back in the driving seat, if I sound hard believe me I'm not, I haven't found the courage to walk yet but I haven't got kids...
My prayers, my love and all my hugs across the water to you and your family.
Helen