Hello Paula and Hello Liz, Thank you for all that information Paula and the hugs I received were well and truly appreciated. Harald was admitted today and Im at our home now and just had a really good cry - it was so horrible to leave him. I never knew how much I love him - truly. Its breaking my heart and I fear its cracking me up as they keep saying hes not the fittest man for surgery - but he always has seemed to be so to me - apart from the smoking and the obvious SCC he now has. The docs are hoping that the flap will take with the arterial supply if his arteries are clogged after all the years of smoking. Every time I come out of that hospital Im in a state because of what they say - I know they have to say those things but it really puts the fear of god into me. Liz - Im not sure - did I miss a previous message from you before? I see you are in UK. How are you coping? please post to me again. I would love to be in touch with you.

Im so tired mentally, off to bed now. Tomorrow is a new day. THANKS SO MUCH ALL AND MUCH LOVE TO YOU

Judith xxxx