Hello Helen, SueMarie and Susan, thank you all so much for your posts. I was feeling wretched yesterday and realised with horror its only one week into the journey. Yes, Im sure you are right its the medication speaking. I am trying to take each day as it comes and the medication Im on is helping with that - but its very strange as I can only think about the next hour ahead not the next day or month or whatever, and on the other hand, I NEED to think and try and be myself again. Im going to the doctors in the morning to try and get my own medication adjusted. At the moment I feel as though I have no brain, and I want it back, but equally if I get it back, I know what I will be like, I will be fretting about everything that is to come.

I hope Harald is in a better state today than yesterday. Its also frustrating not getting enough information from the nursing staff and I keep asking to see the surgeons but they are either in theatre or "gone home". For e.g. Harald has written on his white board that he needs to have a scan of his jaw - is that to check how the flap is healing? I ask the nurses and they say they dont know. How can they not know. Im going to push for an appointment to see the consultant today. Thanks so much all, love to you all.

Will check in tonight. Helen - will be in touch.

Judith xxx