Thank you to everyone who did pray for my fiance. At this point, he has started taking the Zeolite that we purchased, no signs of anything happening yet - but we are still hoping.

The tumors on his colar bone have now started pussing. Either the tumor inside will grow over his air passage and stop his breathing, or the tumors on the outside will start to bleed and when that happens, they won't be able to stop the bleeding.

Everyday I am on edge just wondering if it is our last days together, I am so afraid. He is still a trouper, working hard to stay strong and fight this, I am so proud of him. But seeing him today, he looks pale, tired and not like his usual self. The tumors are causing him to feel pressure in his chest, and as the doctors keep saying that there is nothing they can do, I feel so bad watching him in that condition. He doesn't want to take the pain meds, he says it isn't that bad, but from the expressions on his face, it looks pretty bad. Since his surgery, he has been in the kitchen cooking me different things that he wants me to try because he wants to know if it tastes good. Although I do appreicate the cooking, and I know it makes him happy - I really want him to just rest, but he refuses - it is like his way of always trying to take care of me. Part of me enjoys it, the other part of me misses him eating with me, and if something happens to him - it will just make me miss him even more.

The doctors say he only has months, still seems hard to beleive - so we aren't believing it. But every once and again, I start to feel afraid.

Not sure if anyone has had this type of chest pressure, or knew anyone who had tumors pussing on the outside, any suggestions would be greatly apprecaited.

Hope all of you are doing well, thanks again for being our support.