you have one of the most eloquent ways of writing on this forum. What an amazing woman you are. I cannot even try to understand what you are going through right now with that kind of news, I do know what a toll the caretaking process can be, and you have to, I MEAN HAVE TO take care of yourself too. It is a wonderful attribute to be so giving and loving, but our bodies were not meant to be deprived in the process. Make sure your eating well, stopping to take a bath with candles, even having a sip of wine, because you are fighting for HIS life right now. Whatever good that does come from this illness will be up to you (and allowing God to be a part of)to make happen. There are too many things that I took for granted prior to this disease, especially my relationship with my husband. I dont think that I ever have loved my husband like I love him now. (After 16 years) I also had to look at some really hard aspects of my life, and realize how small they were in comparison to this disease. I dont know you personally, but you are amazing in your wisdom and you bless me with your heartfelt postings.
Love and Prayers
Jennie