Thank you all so much for your kind words and prayers. I just got back from the hospital tonight, my boyfriend had to come back because of the stiches on his neck that had come undone, and now there may be some infection there. He hasn't caught a break yet, it just seems like issue after issue, and I just want to get him to relax. He seemed upset today when they said they wanted to keep him in the hospital for another week, and even though I wish he was home, I just want them to help him to get everything in good order. Ever since they put the feeding tube in his stomach, he has been in a lot of pain. Not to mention the bed sores, and his inability to fall asleep.

Any suggestions as to what has helped any of you to feel at your best through trying times? Sometimes I can make him laugh with some stupid jokes I tell him, or I give him a massage. I try to get him to write down what he is thinking, because he tends to keep everything to himself. I was thinking of getting a good bord game, anything to get him to relax and smile.

I don't know too much about the radiation process, but I have read some things on this site. I want to prepare myself so everything doesn't come to a surprise later on. Plus, knowledge about what to expect, I think will help him and that is what I am here to do. I know if my boyfriend just takes care of himself, stayes positive and has faith, anything is possible. But I think it will take some time for him to feel that way because of the depression he is feeling right now.

For anyone who has felt like my boyfriend, I hope you got the support you needed to lift your spirits - my good wishes are with all of you. Depression can distract a person from what is really important, and that is the journey to getting better. I hope that if anyone out there reading this is going through their own depression, talk to someone and find ways to make yourself feel better, you all deserve to be happy and healthy, and i pray you all get that.