Stephany,

I am not so good tonight. I am drunk and lonely and sad and worst of all I have failed my son. I am devestated.

Most of my life has been a wealth of disapponitments and I have tried so hard to not give them to my sons. But I have failed. I got an email tonight from his scout leader saying that since I have not been able to get him to all of the activities he will not receive his "arrow of light". How can I tell him that after working hard for 5 years he is not going to get to graduate to boy scouts with his buddies?

They can't do this to him! It is not his fault! I am the one who let him down. And I cannot make it better for him.

Why do my children have to cry? I hate this disease!!!

It takes everything. I want my life back. Please! I cannot type through my tears. Sorry.

I have thought much about you today, The hardest part of a support group is that you feel each others pain.

I really wish I could hug you because I could use one myself.

Aarrrgggg!

Cindy