Kirk, Tracey and SHeldon,

THank you so much for your messages. It was very helpful. What happened today was that my mom was admitted to the ER and a PEG tube was in place by 2 today. I just arrived home from the hospital after being with my mom all day and night. WE got the CT results and it stated that there is a probably recurrance of cancer to the floor of her mouth and neck...something like that...So, it does not look good for her. Her lower lip is so swollen and ulcerated.....I feell so bad for her. She got a PEG tube..So that is just in her stomach right? They are starting feeds tomorrow. She is still in the hospital..Thanks for the pointers regarding the tube.....She is in so much pain that I just am having a terrible time seeing her suffer like this. Is there still hope that it could just be an infection and with the nutrition she could maybe fight htis. THey have her on an IV antibiotic drip now....So hope that helps too. She has osteomyeletis in the bone which has caused this major infection....

Tracey, good luck with the tube tomorrow. You are in my prayers/

Kirk, hope youa re doing well...and Sheldon, thanks for the advice. I will look into that.

Thanks again...I just wish my mother would get better..But she keeps getting worse and I cry every day....and it is so hard not to cry in front of her. Is it bad to cry in front of her? I have to fight back the tears all day and night that i am with her..It is so hard..Then I think, why cant we show emotion???? Is it really that bad to do? I am in pain watching her and she must see that.....I try to be strong for her...and I try not to cry in front of her..But cry the minute I leave.....This is so hard. THanks again for your kind wishes

Love
Stephany