I read this thread yesterday, and I`m going to echo Brian, I think there`s a lot of clinical depression going on here. I think about the newly diagnosed people and their caregivers reading this thread, and I want to tell them that all caregivers do not feel this way. I am truly thankful each and every day that I can make Frank`s journey a little bit easier. I realized I`m not the star of this show we call life, I`m a supporting player. Am I on antidepressants, damned right I am, we`ve been in this fight for 5 years,no, it does not get easier,it feels like living on the edge of hell. Would I trade places with anyone else in this world ? No, I wouldn`t. I can`t even imagine living inside Frank`s life,or accepting all his loses. So many of us caregivers beat ourselves for not being able to do more to help. I have never ever resented any of this,I`m just thankful that I`m on this journey with him.Every minute of every day is a blessing. So, please to all the new folks joining us on this journey, understand that we all don`t feel the way that the previous posts indicate. Depression clouds the sky, and there`s a lot of darkness in these posts, and to all caregivers who are feeling badly, please get some help, for yourself and for those who need you.......Dee