Dear all,
I never thought that my "selfish" attitude would have such an impact. I was so scared that I was the only person here dealing with the stress this closely. I was honestly worried about being black-balled.
Thank you all. You've made me feel stronger. I think guilt had played such a major part in my outlook up until now. I had to be reminded that I'm not alone. We are all waging this war on an hour to hour basis. Granted....some hours are easier than others.
It's hard when you are optomistic, and it's worse when you are pessimisstic (sp?) Life intrudes and gives you a daily wake-up.
But, thanks to this forum, we are all in good company, and I'm glad that I poked the bubble of faith. Of coarse we all have it, but it feels threatened at times.
God Bless,
Mandi