Thank you so much Wanda. I do exactly what you said. I preoccupy myself with little things while I am there. I make all the necessary phone calls and order her medication and supplies. I try to explain to my sisters that I am willing to help in anyway physically possible, I just can not do the hands on helping that they are able to do. I do know that my sisters say they dont understand why I cant help but they know that I am trying to get over this hurdle.

I do have to say the guilt is seeing my mom on average once a week. (sometimes less than that). I do talk to her daily and she knows that I love her.