 Administrator, Director of Patient Support Services Patient Advocate (old timer, 2000 posts)
Joined: Jun 2007 Posts: 10,507 Likes: 7 | Im so sorry you are going thru so much right now. Please seek out some help for yourself, maybe even medication to ease your anxiety.
You havent said your age, but your mom is young so Im thinking you are too. My children probably are around your age, so I do understand how it affects you. I saw the look in their eyes when I told them I was sick and how they looked at me when I was at my sickest.
Im glad to hear the communication is still there even if its texting. At least thats better than complete silence.
Please try your best to visit your mom even if you cant look directly at her. It will do your heart good to visit and just hold her hand and give her a hug. Just give it a try, cant hurt to try to visit.
ChristineSCC 6/15/07 L chk & by L molar both Stag I, age44 2x cispltn-35 IMRT end 9/27/07 -65 lbs in 2 mo, no caregvr Clear PET 1/08 4/4/08 recur L chk Stag I surg 4/16/08 clr marg 215 HBO dives 3/09 teeth out, trismus 7/2/09 recur, Stg IV 8/24/09 trach, ND, mandiblctmy 3wks medicly inducd coma 2 mo xtended hospital stay, ICU & burn unit PICC line IV antibx 8 mo 10/4/10, 2/14/11 reconst surg OC 3x in 3 years very happy to be alive  | 
