she is being seen at Fox Chase. She has a team of doctors that specialize in Head and Neck Cancer. They met in the beginning and discussed treatment options. Until this week we thought that it seemed like everything was going as planned. She is unable to communicate. I got her a cell phone and we text message everyday. I try so hard to be there. When she was in the hospital after surgery (25 days) i would linger at the doorway. I was never able to sit and look at her face to face. No one seems to understand the physical feeling that I get when I even start to drive over to her house. i know that is completely a mental thing, i just cant get past it. I DO NOT want to regret this for the rest of my life.