Hellion,
I wish I could think of something helpful to say. You are a feisty person, and I think you are going to find the determination to enjoy the holidays. You will know more on Boxing Day - but in the meantime, live in the moment, and enjoy the beauty life offers. Will be thinking about you and yours.
Maria

CG to husband - SCC Tonsil T1N2M0 HPV+ Never Smoker
First symptoms 7/2010, DX 12/2010
TX 40 IRMT (1.8 gy) + 10 Cetuximab
PET Scans 6/2011 + 3/2012 clear, 5 year physical exam clear; chest CT's clear of cancer. On thyroid pills. Life is good.