Thank you Cheryl. I'm with you, believe me. I'm clinging to my 1% (or whatever) chance and I'm going to look for every out on this, believe me. I haven't and won't quit fighting -- I just can't see leaving my wife and kids yet. It may not look good, but I don't want to accept failure. Who knows what may happen -- I know it ain't good, I reckon it's probably worst case, but I appreciate your optimism because optimism is a wonderful thing!

Another lyric I live my life by (for better or for worse) -- "Spit In your eye, I will defy -- you'll be afraid when I call out your name. I'm not a number, I'm a free man, and my blood is my own, now. Don't care where the past was, I know where I'm going." - Iron Maiden. Who says 80s metal has nothing to say?

I'm doing my very best to believe that they don't know anything and as such I get to ride on and on and on and on and on.

I should note (hence the edit) in fairness that the RO hasn't made the call and is hopeful that we can get more information. I pressed him for scenarios and odds and he was honest and forthcoming. This is just an indication of the direction the conversation went -- I just seem to like to know scenarios and odds. I'm reporting these things out because I like to shout about things I don't like and you guys are the people that understand the things I am shouting about.

I know too many people here have suffered and lost and you guys, then, know why I cry, why I'm so sad and why the very idea hurts way more than the radiation and chemo ever would. Like I said, though, thanks for the encouragement -- the one thing I know is, whatever the odds, none of us know for certain what will happen until they know more for certain. I'm still hoping!

Thank you!

The Hellion