It does seem obscene to me to do something that may have brought you here in the first place...but it is an addiction. we spoke again the other day, i told her how i feel...she said she isn't smoking, but i have been told that before. i pray that she isn't ... i really don't want to be judgmental. she's a great fighter, tries everyday to be 'normal'--i don't know how i would cope if i were in a similar position.
God Bless her and love her.