I had a good day or two and today I am scared again. It's amazing where my thought go-I could go visit a neighbor. It's a very old couple (like grandma and grandpa: their daughter and her baby are sometimes there). But no, I am sitting here afraid that I will be a bother or not have enough energy to be properly social and have a normal conversation; I am too tired to go "I may as well just sit here and rest."....