You are right. I don't know how to get out of that. I have read many books and tried many things. My negative voice is very strong and I am very easily pushed into negative territory. The fatigue/constant illness and weakness make it harder. I don't handle illness very well even when it's minor. I don't deal with loss/grief very well. A lot of trouble accepting the loss of physical ability etc. I think I may be genetically predisposed as my parents are similar. My mother is pretty depressed.

[quote=suzanne98]TRT,

When I read your posts I notice they have an "unhappy" tone. I'm sure what I'm going to say is nothing you have not heard before but...our minds are very powerful. If you keep referring to yourself as "low energy" "exhausted" " such an effort to talk to people" all of these things will remain the same in your life.

In the past I always blew people who talked like I am now. However, I truly believe it now. If we tell ourselves we can do somethnig, regardless if it is mental or physical we can do it. Do you like to read? There are so many good books out there on the power of the mind.

I know you have tried therapists but we also have to look at ourselves at times like this. You should try to reach within and get your strength from that. Take baby steps..remember, one day at a time. I have told you my story so you know I have gone through some hard times. My aunt and I emailed all day sometimes just to get me through the work day. I will be that person for you. I know you can do it...I'm here for you. I wold love to see you get past this.

As always, let me know what I can do. [/quote]