yeah, I used to be depressed about back pain. Now I only wish I could have back pain. Unfortunately I can't seem to do that with divorce or loss of standard of living.

Another thing is that I am in my early 40s and feel like I have not accomplished much or did much of what I wanted to do (dying in fear). I think it's easier when a person is happy with their life and feels accomplished, did what they wanted and is ok with dying (dying peacefully).

I kept putting things off or was to afraid to try. Now that there is probably not much time left I don't have the capacity, strength or will. I also seem to be lacking in purpose (purpose in life).


[quote=Pete D]I find it helpful to stop occasionally and hold my current worries up to the light to see how important they really are in the big picture -- And as we all now know, some things are a LOT less important than others wnen compared to the cancer. [/quote]