Fear seems to be the nature of this beast....I am living proof to what extent fear can consume someone. I am to this day(the surgeon said he got everything and all clear)constantly feeling around my neck looking in my mouth every chance I get. Paranoid yes...scared as heck...of course...this was one of the scariest ordeals I have had in my life time. How will I react if something shows up weird I don't know yet have no clue, but I thank my lucky stars there are good people here to help me through. I am slowly moving forward step by step, moment by moment, day by day. If I have learned one thing yes it is good to plan but emotionally coping works to live in the moment.