Rhonda,
I hope things are better by now. Your post really hit me, as I recall the darkest day of Tom's treatment. He was soooo sick - - and he had already spent a week in the hospital because of a blood clot that had formed at the kidneys, so he was sooo tired of the hospital. I did, literally, have to beg him to continue the treatments - - both radiation and chemo. I used every argument I could and (shamefully?) used the "I can't live without you" argument. Thank goodness for strong and caring nurses, because I think they were the ones, in quiet voices, that coaxed him into submission. It was not pretty, but he is here with me today, and I am happy and he is happy and getting better (but no heavier ) every day.
We are pulling for him - and you.
Nicki