Anne, please dont doubt yourself or put yourself down. A caregiver has a very difficult job trying to keep up with everything. Your husband is very fortunate to have you looking out for him. Im sorry to see he is now back in the hospital. At least he came home for a little bit. You are doing a great job. You were able to recognize that your husband needed more help than you could give him and made the call to the on-call oncologist. Dont call yourself a whiner or compare anything to me, Im just a medical enigma thats all smile LOL

Now is the point where we all wished we could have fast forwarded thru til a month post treatment. Im so sorry that your husband is struggling so much. Its a rough road but things will get better.

Be strong, you are doing great!!!!

Christine
SCC 6/15/07 L chk & by L molar both Stag I, age44
2x cispltn-35 IMRT end 9/27/07
-65 lbs in 2 mo, no caregvr
Clear PET 1/08
4/4/08 recur L chk Stag I
surg 4/16/08 clr marg
215 HBO dives
3/09 teeth out, trismus
7/2/09 recur, Stg IV
8/24/09 trach, ND, mandiblctmy
3wks medicly inducd coma
2 mo xtended hospital stay, ICU & burn unit
PICC line IV antibx 8 mo
10/4/10, 2/14/11 reconst surg
OC 3x in 3 years
very happy to be alive smile