Sharlee - I am so glad that things were a little better for you, today. And how great that your friend was there to support you! You really do need to take care of yourself and you cannot do everything or worry about everything at once. I was married for 20 years to an abusive alcoholic and it took me way too long to realize it. But if you think alcohol could be the problem (there are ways like checklists to be able to decide) - then, as Petey says, you should get yourself to an Al-Anon meeting. Living with an alcoholic is a crazy-maker. After attending my first Al-Anon meeting, I left there feeling like a tremendous weight had been lifted off my shoulders - a weight I hadn't even realized was there. You have gotten such good advice and thoughts above. Just remember we are all thinking about you and hoping everything goes well. If you need to talk more about Al-Anon or anything else, please PM me.