Dear Sharlee,
I have been reading your posts and am so worried for you. We are a similar age and I have had similar treatment, although in my case, rad and chemo as well, as the cancer was bigger and in the neck also.
I am so very sorry that after everything you have gone through, you are facing more distress and fear. It may be that this will turn out to be much less worrying than it seems, but I know only too well, that saying it doesn't make you feel it.
I don't know you or your family, but maybe it was the alcohol and fear talking in your husband's case? It's cold comfort when you're on the receiving end I know, but I hope that by the time you read this, things have improved. My own husband and daughter have dealt with all of this is a variety of ways over the last 6 months, sometimes painful for me.
So many people will be thinking of you right now and sending you love, every good wish, hope and positive energy, me included. I wish you all that you wish yourself. You are so right about taking a breath and then keep on keeping on.
I am going away today on holiday, but I will be thinking of you and hope to hear good news when I visit the board in a couple of weeks.
With my very best wishes,
Georgia