went back to read what you had written out for me. I have to take a break from it sometimes as it causes me anxiety. I"m a health nut for this reason alone...I despise medical stuff.

my husband always thinks no one has ever been as sick as him. He has called the nurse multiple times and they reassure him that it's this way for most. He doesn't like that answer.

He has looked in the fridge multiple times today but never gets anything but a swig of milk. He has been out of bed a lot more today than the past week. Tomorrow is #11 radiation treatment. I think a couple of days off gave his body a little break and maybe some energy.

He couldn't even stand the popsicle today..too painful. Why would one not use the numbing solution? He is a control freak so maybe he is not facing that this is no longer under his control except to follow what they suggest for him and it seems he is opposed to most of their suggestions.

Not sure about the HIPPA stuff. I have gone to most of his doctor appointments when able which is good because I listen better! In the beginning, the doctors talked to me so I'm thinking he signed the HIPPA stuff for me to be involved.

your continued support is so appreciated! I put on the private fb group that I don't need meals but I need for my local friends to go out to coffee with me as I'm an extrovert and get tremendous energy out of relaxing with friends. A few men from church are now in the private group and have offered to help drive him when I need help. I have lined up 1 to drive 2 days as I have to renew my real estate license by taking classes right by his cancer center but he's not going to sit for 9 hours while I"m in class. He doesn't really have friends so I'm thrilled to have a few offers of help. I am thinking he will need men as he gets weaker. He's 6'3" probably 300 lbs. I'm 5'2" and about half that weight. I could not physically get him up if he falls. He's already struggling to get in and out of his low lying car. One. Day. At. A. Time.