I have my account set up so that I am notified by email when certain people have posted. That way I can know what is going on and respond. Otherwise, I find I must take a break now and then. There are days when I want to retreat to the background and let others who have more experience take on the subject at hand. Also, and this is a big one, as we approach the next PET/CT, I always get a little broody.

Clark has his next PET/CT Wednesday before Thanksgiving. It will be a marathon day beginning at 6am. I feel like I am preparing myself for a boxing match. Things have been good for us in the last months but there is that sword hanging over our heads.

While we have made it this far, 3 years, I am reluctant to celebrate. We are happily living day to day and have discovered pure joy in the mundane. As Clark says he doesn't want to jinx anything. The anxiety is on the rise, but we will do fine. We'll put it on hold while we celebrate Thanksgiving with family.

I plan on posting for a long time. I know how good it feels when someone else knows what you are going through. It is not necessary to face OC alone. Empathy goes a long way. I hope to give what I can to someone else.