Hello Lisa,

I am so sorry to hear you are having such a hard time. I have been battling this disease since 2004 and i know how lonely it can be. I was married at 18, but divorced by 24 and i never remarried. i have dated, but finding that special guy has been an impossible task. I am someone as well who isn't all that blessed in the "looks dept". Most of my life i was extremely overweight (i weighed 365 lbs at one point). i have since lost about 180 lbs, but still have weight to lose. Most men look at me and pass, throw in i have been battling this disease since 2004 and i have a better chance of hitting the mega million or getting hit by lighting then finging Mr. Wonderful!

I have lost friends, and i am battling fear and saddness right now. But i refuse to let it keep me down for long. I am alive and the battle aint over yet. everyday brings a new chance for something good to happen and a new chance for me to meet someone new. I seem to cry all the time right now, but i wipe my tears away put on my tennis shoes and go to the gym. Sometimes I just take a walk outside and breath the clean air and feel the sun on my face.

And like everyone else has said to you, you are not alone. you have everyone on this site who cares about you.

Please keep in touch and keep coming back to this site. I may not have answers for you, but I am here to listen anytime.

Take care
Gina