Thanks you guys I was really having a low time when I last posted this, it is SO nice to have found this site, even at my oncologists office it seems like all the posters and magazines laying around are geared towards breast and prostate cancer and they have a "women's" cancer support group as well which i dont think i will be wrong to presume will be largely composed of breast cancer patients and survivors. See, the thing about that is that the lady who has radiation right before me has breast cancer and sometimes i feel SO guilty when I see her come out of the dressing room because I have a full set of healthy 44 DD boobs and more hair (on my head) than God should have ever gave to one person.
SO- having hair and boobs might not make me fit in super well at a women's cancer support group.
I have my sense of humor back a little bit today, largely because you guys responded. Today was my 9th radiation treatment and I am having a lot of trouble swallowing as the night goes on, and am starting to feel sore in the throat, so I think the "good" days when I could eat are just about over again.
To add more to my story- I AM a professional therapist. So I know about depression, anti-depressants and spend very large chunks of my day helping folks treat their illness. I am very rarely in a place where I feel sorry for myself,I have struggled with feeling lonely all of my life so this isn't anything new, just exacerbated by the fact that there are so few during such a sucky time of life. I dont think its self pity to say this shit sucks is it? IT SUCKS!!! For everyone!
anyway, I am on facebook and havent found any forums for oral cancer or maybe I just didn't know how to look on there. I mostly do farmville haha. I do post updates for folks to see how things are going but again- I think that is getting REALLY lame it makes me feel like an old lady complaining about her bowel movements- YAWN
It is so awesome to have found you guys- thanks!
Anyhow- Thanks again and if anyone wants to add me on facebook its Lisa Petersen (from Kalispell Montana)
