Hi Lisa. I feel how lonely and sad you feel just reading your post. Don't give up on finding Mr. Right and good for you for not settling. I am my husband's first wife and he was 45 when we got married. He was never engaged and never lived with anyone. I remind him every once in a while that it just took him longer to find the "perfect" wife for himself. I know it must be lonely going through this without a lot of friends and family to support you. As a caregiver I also felt very lonely and frustrated during John's treatments. People I work with stopped asking how he was doing, his 2 sisters who live 10 minutes away never called and people who I thought were friends just didn't bother. We fortunately had my sister, brother, sister in law and John's best friend who helped with getting John back and forth to treatments.

I lost my mom 2 1/2 years ago to pancreatic cancer and I don't really have any close girlfriends so it was a very, very lonely time for me also. I guess sometimes people don't know what to say or do so they don't do anything.

If you are on Facebook, let me know what your full name is on there and we can be Facebook friends. A lot of us on here have become Facebook friends and that helps to not feel so isolated. Keep posting and reaching out here and don't be afraid to ask for help or to ask for pharmaceutal help if you need it. Cancer is very depressing and I think it would be abnormal not to feel some depression.