Lisa,
I am married and have two wonderful small children and yet I still felt alone dealing with this. I think in part is that I still had to take care of the kids because I did not get much help from my spouse until I got down right ugly with him and told he had to start taking care of the kids. I say that to tell you that the grass is not always greener. I felt that if I were single it would have benn easier cause I just would have myself to take care of and not two litte kids and a husband. We go through a lot with this stuff and even when treatment is over we still have to be diligent about our care because it is really never over. Just know that it is okay to vent here and as we all care and have all felt a little bit of what you are feeling now. No one can understand better how we feel than those that have been through it. This is the best place.