You guys are great! Today sucks. BAD. My Oncologist who is Mr. Personality to begin with (NOT) informed me today that he had presented my case at something called "the Tumor Board". They all agreed that even though I had teeny tiny tumors in my lymphs that I should get chemo.

I DONT WANT TO LOSE MY HAIR!!!! It's all I got in life. I didn't get graced with a pretty face but God gave me a full head of hair that never saw a bad day. I have been able to weather this shit pretty well so far but the thought of pulling out handfuls of my curls is more than I can handle. Maybe that sounds stupid but I have enough issues around my looks (cant ya tell) that I just feel like losing the only asset I have is more than I can bear.

I am going to add every one of you to my facebook page. I need all the support I can get right now. I think for today I am going to go have a beer and try to forget that I am sick for a few minutes. Glad you guys are here!