Donna...I love my husband more than life itself, and he has treated me like a queen for more than 27 years...however, since he was diagnosed about six months ago, sometimes I just want to run screaming! I know that you love your mother and want her to have the best life possible; I'm also sure that she loves you and appreciates the many sacrifices you have made on her behalf.
We ARE human; not perfect. When life gets 'out of order', I stress beyond belief; therefore, I can relate. I'm said before that being a 2-time cancer victim was a walk in the park compared to being the caregiver.
I said all that to say this: Call your pcp, get an appt asap; get on some good drugs; take a long weekend; get some respite care for your mother while you take a breather. Hire a temporary housekeeper if you must.
Some days it's just all-consuming and overwhelming, even to those of us who, seemingly, 'have it all', and should have few stresses in life.
Run, scream, beat the walls if you must! Take a walk, take a drive or go to a movie, get your nails done, a massage or a facial. Do something for YOU!
DON'T hold your anger and frustrations inside, else someone will be posting YOUR obituary for us to greive over.
(Hope none of MY ramblings offend you!)
Lois