And Wayne ..I too would love an Xmas Card as I am sure I wIll NEVER see the Great Wall !!! Not due to cancer yet due to having 5 kids and NO Finances to accomadate that one !!! LOL !! But for me living meant going back to dancing ..somthing I love ..I could have taken a position as a cheerleading coach , but I will tell you that FEAR kept me from it ..MY what if I get sick again ..then what Happens..the kids will have no one and then what ... Some times I think the fear is the worst part of all this because I dont know how to change it or make it better !