As has been said many times "you can be cancer free but you are never free from cancer". In some ways it's like a bad breakup - the further away you get from it the less you think about it. It was a long while until I could sleep well at night. I still have moments of panic when my dentist tells me I have leukoplakia or develop thrush out of the blue. Even post nasal drip can set it off (the fear). Sometimes I have to take mini breaks from the forum to get away from it (I still visit almost daily to see if there are any fires burning.

I give it far less headspace now...