Jeff,

Fear is normal. Ditto to all who have occasional moments of impending bad news. I have always got wound up prior to every follow-up. You will never not think about this again. The frequency, time and recovery from fear will decrease overtime.
Prior to your treatment you were preoccupied with absorbing sooo much information you didn't have time to focus on fear. Now, you have time to focus on what everything you went through was for. Accept your fear. Learn from it. It is a normal part of the whole process.

If you can figure out how to eliminate it, I too, would like to know.

Live, Laugh, Love & Learn!

Mike